The 3 kinds of laziness

-—Matthieu Ricard, Buddhist Monk and Molecular Biology PhD, in his book of conversations with his philosopher father, "The Monk and the Philosopher"

Upon stumbling on these wise words, it has caused me to reflect on my current life. 
First thought that cross my mind was--  I am busy. How can I say that I am lazy? 

Here is why. 

First kind of laziness - physically stagnant or spending time on sleeping, eating and activities that cause procrastination and negligence in essential things.

Antidote: "reflect on death and the impermanent nature of everything. We never know when we're going to die or what circumstances are going to lead to our death. So there isn't a moment to lose in getting down to what's really essential"  --- What are the essentials, i wonder. 

Second kind of laziness - settling for comfort when there can be much more to attain. Solely because "Someone like me will never manage to perfect themselves". Laziness to make an effort.  

Antidote: "reflect on the benefits that such inner transformation will bring".--- How should I perfect myself, what is my path, what transformation I want, i exclaimed.

Third kind of laziness - over focusing on secondary matters and details but neglecting the core matters/ the essentials/ what really matters. 

Antidote: "what gives life its meaning"--- I do not know!!!!!! 

Reading this, I am lazy in a way, hiding myself in secondary importance and remaining in my comfort zone, as life is easier that way. However, looking back in life, would that be what you want? Would you be contented? What do I want to achieve? How I want to give my life its meaning? I have yet to explore.... 
    

你在我面前，可是我不能抱你。

你拥着我，随着音乐，慢舞了起来。眼睛睁开，空荡荡的房间，只见泪湿了枕头。

First cheesecake - Chocolate Peanut Butter Cheesecake. *There goes to looking good in summer*

To finish up my peanut butter, guess what I did? Make a cheesecake, of course :)

Courtesy of Nigella Lawson,VOILA, first attempt on cheesecake. I thought it will not make it out of the oven but I succeeded! Even though it is still a far cry from the gorgeous golden brown cheesecake on her highness's website, still it did not look that bad. 

Instead of using smooth peanut butter, I used chunky peanut butter. And used less sugar, however I thought the cheesecake was still too sweet for my liking. 

The adaptation from Nigella Lawson's recipe: 


For the base

200 grams digestive biscuits
50 grams salted peanuts
100 grams dark chocolate chips
50 grams soft unsalted butter

For the filling

500 400 grams cream cheese (2 philadelphia tubs)
3 large eggs
3 large egg yolks
200 150 grams caster sugar
125 100 ml sour cream
250 200 grams smooth chunky peanut butter

For the topping

250 ml sour cream
100 grams milk chocolate chips
30 grams soft light brown sugar

The recipe asked for 50 minutes in the oven the first time around. I felt it could be longer and the cheesecake would be much solid, instead of nearly melting consistency. 

Oh well, better next time. Cheers! 

Side note: Temperature has gone up, weeeeee, spring finally came!

你让我感动了。。。

我听见了你的心情。原谅我的自私。我答应你我会回来的，只要你还在等我。答应你我会用你等候我这一年的时间，完成我想要做到的事情，不辜负你这痛苦的等待。

你的体谅，你的承受，我很感激，也见证我对你的肯定。

The long distance begins

Watched my baby sleep, caught him waking up at midnight and nodding off to sleep after a couple attempts to stay up on his elbows. I smiled watching him do that. Just felt like I am there with you.